should i just forget about what we have last time
and i continue to move on?

shall i just forget what are my feeling towards you
although i still have a slim chance to get you

do i really need to have a distance with you
so that it wont trigger my memories with you
although we haven't really started it before?

all these leads to these question...

do i wanna give up on her?
do i wanna get go her
do i have a chance that as slim as 0.1%?

shall i ask her again this questions...

do you have feelings towards me?

or shall i say

you better give a YES or NO !!
no more I DON'T KNOW from you!!

random blog of mine.. since so long didnt update already..
*padahal just a day apart only... wakakak!!

well tonight go to my cousin's BBQ party at her house that is situated at....
bukit permata or taman permata or whatever... Zz

so the plan of the day is like this :-

-later go to ss15 to do some Photostatting
-ask lecturer bout the design pogress
-then lunch at ehsan ^^
-after that.. maybe do some reading at library
-after that services class by Ar. Liaw
-after that... go my cousin house

well kinda emo yesterday...
dont ask me why...
feel like wanna talk to sebrina
T.T
mana lu sebrina?!

8 Things I'm Passionate About.

• Design
• Art
• People around me
• My works
• Music
• computers
• my life
• Architecture

8 Things I say or Do Often.

• aper la
• Damn you!!
• Fuck la, where got..
• sengal
• bangang
• sure or not?!
• adui..
• how if/what if.

8 Things I've recently Read.

• Charles Jenks's articles
• Kekasih Gelapku's lyric
• read my plans and mind.. on designing
• formulas on structural mathematics
• Bible of architecture, building by-law
• sms from my friends
• The book ‘Interior Graphics’
• Blogs from other people

8 Songs I Could Listen To Over And Over Again.

• Whatever it takes - Lifehouse
• Kekasih Gelapku - Ungu
• Nothing last forever – Maroon 5
• Starlight - MUSE
• Biarlah - Nidji
• Stop and Stare - OneRepulic
• Sing - Travis
• Amie – Damien Rice

8 Things I've learned This Year and Last Year.

• Mr. See are SUCKS!!
• Mind map first before start to do design
• Last minutes on revision are sucks, but last minutes designs are impressive!! ^^
• What's done is done. Stop complaining!
• Read more, experience more
• Appreciate every people around me
• Committed 100% to everyone
• Girls are the greatest design from God ^^

8 People I Tag.

• Sylvester
• Christine
• Yvonne
• Wendy
• kimmy
• yen
• yumi

Rules:
The tag victim has to come out with 8 different points about his/her crush or perfect lover. Whichever applies.

Gender... Optional

Tag 8 other victims and leave a comment on their blogs.

If you're tagged a 2nd time, there is no need to repeat this again.

Lastly, HAVE FUN doing it!


(i) love me as in 101% divine love!! ^^

(ii) loves her families, friends and same also mine. but of course i will love hers as well!! ^^

(iii) Does not smoke / gamble / do drugs / cheat. if she does, i will still love her ^^

(iv) helpful girl friend. as in help me do assignments.. LOL well i hope she be able to gave some help to my mum in future ^^

(v) have a girl friend that NOT studying or pursuing Engineering or Law course. preferable field: same field as me, design and arts!! ^^

(vi) Have a good level of intelligence and smarter than me too!! ^^

(vii) understanding. this is what i needed the most. others can come easily

(viii) someone that likes me coz of im RICH, you can just buzz off ^^

i tag....
everyone that has just finish reading it!! ^^

im currently....

SAD, EMOTIONAL, and thinking..
why cant i?!

just a random ones...
ignore please ><"

i really love u

shall i or shall i not....
these question already bugging me for like...
past 4 days
on this particular girl i like to

well is something like this:
i like her...
but in someways..
she seems... giving me those uncomfortable look
that gives me the feel of shes annoyed when i around.

well yesterday..
have 3 'lecturers' to teach and guide me on this matter
have some brief idea on what i shall do next
this question struck my mind when my friend are giving some advices
do i really.... love her.. or just liking for fun after i lost HER??
this question also... bugging me for quite a long time already..

well my final answer is i love her..
matter now is i don't know weather she has the same feeling towards me
but what my friend advices me to do is.. JUST BE MYSELF !!
show care, love, blah blah.. towards her..
some says that make her miss me by missing in action for some days.. LOL
well i take every proposals as a suggestion..

haha... i am some stupid guy here that don't know how to tackle a girl
after live at Earth for like.. 20++ years?!
HA HA!!

Ungu - Kekasih Gelapku

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku tahu ku takkan selalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu ku berikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku...

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

Ooh...

Ku mencintaimu, lebih dari apapun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu, sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku...

feel like wanna blog in Malay
well.. this is my first blog in Malay... ^^
enjoy..

hari ini memang hari yang sukar
kelas struktur bangunan berlanjutan sehingga pukul 5 petang tadi
satu kelas dah keletihan akibat ajaran matematik fizik
selepas itu kelas kita bermula untuk menyiapkan kerja
* walau.. so hard..
i better stick with english back.. T.T

well was half day of lecture and half day of assignments
while..
we like always.. take our SWEET lunch break
ended up 3:30 pm only start class.. T.T
and we all was like even worst than half dead when we half way in class
till 5:00 pm, administration office staff says that they gonna close college soon
thanks for so 'on time' to chase us off.. ^^

yesterday was a great breakthrough for me
'courage'
i actually chat with a girl..
with white dress, sweet looking, and tall.. T.T
during the performance that my friend done at one of the college
*read previous blog for more info

but sadly just chat for near 7 minutes only... T.T
but at anyhow..
yesterday still are a fun day for me.. ^^

buy this for me...
then i will do whatever you want me to do..
ahaha!!! joking joking

today.. or shall i say yesterday night
my friend performing in band at one college at Damansara
so went there and enjoy the concert

i get on hand on trying my friend's brand new near 3 weeks old D60 Nikon
when my friend's girl friend call me to be their band's photographer
since she's too shy to go front and snap pictures

then that was my second time grab on hand at a DSLR
and first time to snap pictures with that
well usually i use my digital camera..
and this time... a DSLR ^^

well my skills of photography still as good as usual..
*wah perasan nyer... xD
but i glad that my friend like all the pictures i snap from her BABE.. ^^
then i have an offer to become their band's photographer..
sadly i didn't have my own camera.. T.T

but after some discussion with my friends..
maybe.. just possible that i able to borrow her camera
for shooting at their band performance at June
^^

hopefully theres enough financial support and chances..
hehe

*pictures will upload soon..
coz not my camera.. T.T

i want DSLR... T.T

already woke up by the time hits 6:00 am in this morning
doing my model but sadly run out of UHU gum.. T.T
later showing to 2 lecturers... hope it is OK... hehe

these few days..
i can say is fun, challenging and fun (coz for me fun always come 2 times!! )
design is fun.. although is tough
just only yesterday afternoon
i stared at my newly brought sketch paper roll for an hour and a half.. T.T
but glad that i on time to submit my works... hehe

well just this for yesterday..
today is another new day!! ^^
do it well, live up your life!! ^^
time is running up!! ^^

i miss you..
deeply miss you

i officially.....
have 2 dreams in one night..

first..
is near the beaches...
where i dreamed bunch of people riding a Blue Whale
then after a couple of minutes when i walking towards the hill..
i saw at least 4 whales waiting the passengers.. LOL!!!!!

that was the first...

second ones i kinda forgot already..
but i think is sound like this..
i dated with the girl that i have a crush on now...
go for movie..
half way through i hold her hand..
when she say let it go..
i keep holding her hand till the movie ends..
surprisingly she is ok that i holding her hand...
i fetch her back...
i still hold her hand while i drive..
till arrive her home..
that time... still holding till don't want to let it go.. ^^
- forgot this part -
- and also ending -

LOL!!!!

PS:
Cecilia.. you sure happy.. coz your friend
are not blogging bout' some song lyric already!! ahaha!!

it is fun though..
have a dream like this with her.. ^^
but..
is it possible that this occasion will happen??
of cause is the second dream!! =.="
takkan la then first dream will happen!? xD

school as usual...
i also slack as usual..
assignments are killing me..
reports, model, design, detail drawings...
some... can help me?!
or like Remy Zero's song for Small ville series
... somebody save~~~ ME~~~~

but im sure i can do it...
just....
be more disciplined for myself..
responsible for my works...
and commit myself to do all the works!!! argh!!
haha..
satisfied bout my model.. ^^
although just half way done.. hehe
have to put more effort though!! ^^

i think i realize something yesterday..
when i in the state of some like drunk when i just take
not more than 150ml of Heineken..

i think.. i fall in love to her already....

let time be the judge...
and let my heart impress hers... ^^

Cheng Kim tagged me. wakaka!!

1. Real name : Ng Wei Loong
2. Nick name : Ar. Ng, longkang, along... whatever you can think of from my name la.. xD
3. Married : no idea.. whats wrong to be a bachelor.. ^^
4. Male or female : Male
5. High School : SMK USJ 8
6. College : ALFA international College.. taking Architecture
7. Short hair or long hair : near mediun long hair.. ^^
8. Are you a health freak ? : no... ahaha!!
9. Height: 1.72m aka 172cm aka 5'8"
10. Do you have a crush on someone? : ya.. ^^
11. Do you like yourself? : yes.. damn LOVE myself.. ^^
12. Piercings : none n never
13. Righty or left handed? : righty

FIRSTS :
14. First surgery : no idea though
15. First piercing(s) : none
16. First person you see in the morning : usually mum but today is my dad.. ^^
17. First award : does model in the display board counts??
18. First sport you joined : badminton
19. First pet : a pair of tortoise
20. First vacation : no idea...
22. First crush : when i was standard 5 ^^

23. Eating : nothing
24. Drinking : plain water
25. I'm about to : brush teeth n ready myself
26. Want kids: yea.. some day when i get married only plan la.. xD
27. Want to get married : haha.. no idea.. just let it be by now
28. Careers in mind : Architect of course... ^^ or related fields

WHICH ONE IS BETTER :
29. Lips or eyes : err....eyes?
30. Hugs or kisses : both
31. Shorter or taller : taller please!! T.T
32. Romantic or spontaneous : spontaneous
33. Sensitive or loud: im a LOUD assxxxx
34. Trouble maker or hesitant : err... no idea... xD

HAVE YOU EVER:
35. Kissed a stranger : nope. xD
36. Drank bubbles : huh?! i think you're insane if you do that
37. Lost glasses/contacts : haha.. always be luckily found back my glasses.. xD
38. Ran away from home : nope
39. Liked someone younger : yea
40. Liked someone older : yup.. ^^
41. Broken some one's heart: ya... HER heart
42. Been arrested : kena tahan before for just laughing in the car.. LOL..
43. Cried when someone died : erm.. so far.. no
44. Liked a friend : haha.. ^^

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
45. Yourself : yup
46. Miracles : ya..
47. Heaven : YES!! 101%
48. Santa Claus : haha... LAME...
49. Angels : ya..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
50. Is there one person you want to be with right now : more than one actually...
51. Do you believe in god : yes, i do.

PEOPLE I'M TAGGING :
- everyone that just done reading this entry.. ^^

James Blunt - Carry you Home

Trouble is her only friend and he's back again
Makes her body older than it really is
And she says it's high time she went away
No ones got much to say in this town
Trouble is the only way is down, down, down

As strong as you were
Tender you go
I'm watching you breathing
For the last time
A song for your heart
But when it is quiet
I know what it means
And I'll carry you home
I'll carry you home

If she had wings she would fly away
And another day god will give her some
Trouble is the only way is down,down,down

As strong as you were
Tender you go
I'm watching you breathing for the last time
A song for your heart
But when it is quiet
I know what it means
I'll carry you home
I'll carry you home

And they're all born pretty
in New York City tonight
and someones little girl
was taken from the world tonight
under the Stars and Stripes

As strong as you were
Tender you go
I'm watching you breathing for the last time
A song for your heart
But when it is quiet
I know what it means
And I'll carry you home

As strong as you were
Tender you go
I'm watching you breathing for the last time
A song for your heart
But when it is quiet
I know what it means
And I'll carry you home

I'll carry you home

another nice song that i spotted at mamak store near my college when taking tea break.
well is really been a while since last time i litsen to his songs....

well.. whoever litsen this song and dont feel that
this is another nice song from James Blunt...
think again...

the song's music video..

enjoy the new song from James Blunt.. ^^

near a month already..
the pain still can feel till now...

i don't know..
when comes to relationships..
is the hardest thing for me to letting it go
from ah wen till HER...
sometimes really makes me think hard...
do i really....

i do love HER
same as ah wen..
i mean... *no idea to wanna talk already...
and now...
is even worsen than the 2's...
i feel myself really in the dilemma of
a symptoms called i-like-someone-too-easily
as easy as -snapping-finger-tips

and for your informations..
i like someone now..
that i TOTALLY no idea what she thinking now..
what i feel is that she treat me as a good friend for her
but i was expecting more than that
wanted to start a relationships with her..

from what i heard from her friend..
and her friend do advise me to..
keep up my intentions..
well i really no idea what she thinking
just let time being
anyway is nice to be friend with her.. ^^
let time become the judge for this time..

i really miss the one month plus relationships with HER..
really miss it...
well i know i can't get it back now..
just let the time be the cure..
im sure i can forget the past..
and become a good friends for each other

15 more days SHE will back to Malaysia!! ^^
can't wait can't wait!!!

Lifehouse - First Time

We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a scar under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a scar under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as a scar under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
Whenever I'm alone with you tonight
Like being in love with you for the first time

Like being in love she said for the first time
Like being in love with you the first time

first time give my mum a carnation
first time to actually give my mum something
first time to rub her shoulder
and first time to tell her...
happy mothers day

well she looked shocked (well she should be.. ^^)
but after that shes looks OK already
after receiving the flower

picture of the flower will be update soon
coz my camera is at my friends hand.. ^^

ma.. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!
LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!

argh... sucks man!! T.T
just now nearly cried out...
for a simple sharing with my friends..

OKAY....
thats... erm... so not me?!
haha.. excuses...
but seriously..
nearly cried.. slight wet eyes..
sorrow in heart
sometimes i feel that all i need is a cry
i think after crying sure feel better...
but i happy to myself that i express out!!
wakaka!!

PS: didnt cry la.. ok?!
PSS: just have a wet eyes thats all

mothers day tomorrow..
buy something?? no idea... xD

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!! ^^

interesting
found this thing when i visit my friend's blog~~~

73%

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

then this...

Lets101 Quizzes - Quizzes For Fun

after that... this one...

My sex appeal is 6.1 out of 10.
Ladies beware!!!

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

when i was leaving that...
i founded something.... VERY IINTERESTING some more.. xD

i FOUND.....
THIS!!!!

Lets101 - Free Online Dating

PS: whoever smokes... please STOP!! ahahah!!
PSS: like i care bout that!? LOL...

haha..
fun and easy quizzes and tags..
hehe
do try and discover yourself
especially the smoke one!! ahaha!!


chaozz!!

life brief candle...
one of the famous writer, Shakespeare's poem

life is like a candle
it come once
no second chance
and it lights bright as it like your life and my life

as we get older,
the candle became shorter as well and
short and short....
and lastly, fade off
just like our life

the wax created by candle
is like our results we created at our life
ups and downs
some spot has some carbon monoxide's stain on it
and some pure as original white as it not polluted by the smoke

it do reflect our life
waxes that created,
is our result that we has done
weather is bad or good
is also part of the candle
as we get older and older
more results created and more..
and more..
till the part where you say..
"...i give up..."
the light never fades away
what it needs is a lighter or a match to light it up again

life ends fast
and you will never know when you die off
and you will never know how much wax that created from our life
what interesting is
we have a community called - friends
and realize that some stains are along the trails
and time to time
the spot is bigger and bigger same
as the trail,
become thicker and thicker
and some just smoothly drop from the tip of the candle
with a light, unseen trail

whats great to see is that
my friend same Basic Training as me at AsiaWorks
graduated from the Advance Training
are shine bright
like the candle glow brighter day by day
and keep giving light and hope to people around him and also me
proud of him
coz he is one of the graduates that
will support, care, love the people around him!! ^^

awww.. my Advance will be at July intake
due to busyness in my schedule
and i can roughly imagine how is Advance Training..
sure will be another adventurous 5 day of my trip bout my life ^^
and my future ^^

Basic Training already gave a huge impact to change my life
slowly and be responsible
and committed to my life now ^^
and i glad that im be myself among my friends
just be myself ^^

CONGRATS TO THE ADVANCE GRADUATES MA 119 ^^

Maroon 5 - Nothing Last Forever

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness gets us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And I show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A babe that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving all he makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It won't fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And I show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

But we have not hit the ground
Doesn't mean we're not still falling, oh..
I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every word whispered we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing last forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

is it true that none of a thing in Earth last forever?!
you decide.. ^^

-repeated the same 1 song since yesterday night

hard works...
for those who work hard
and today, we pay tribute to them

1st May...
is LABOR DAY!!!

as for me,
yesterday night sleeps very early
as early as 1 am
and wake up at near 9:30 am
wakaka!!
nice nice!! ^^
already been a while never sleeps so early and wake up early
fresh a whole day
i began my day by...
PLAYING GAME!!! xD
after that play basketball at 5 pm till 6:30 pm
and now, sitting in front if computer
writing my journal

sometimes i do feel lonely
i dont know what makes me think that
i mean..
i got bunch of friends around me
from my high schools till college
but sometimes i do feel that im lonely

well i already get used to loneliness last time
but..
it strikes back..
maybe is my inner self told me that i want someone besides me now
but who???

i know..
i need my true self in me...
hehe!!
anyway i cant lose out my original ME!! ^^

life
are full of wonders
are full of expectations
are full of questions
are full of powers
are full of responsible
are full of beliefs

i need fresh air
i need pure oxygen
i need water
i need Earth
i need shade
i need trees
i need fire
to be with me when i needed them the most
to help me when i needed their hands
to guide me when i wrong
to wake me up when i in sleeping mood

Tagged by Amanda, my cute cousin!! ^^

5 Random Facts about me.

Fact 1 : i think deep although is just a simple question *from what my friends say to me

Fact 2 : im loud, noisy and likes to disturb people, especially GIRLS!! wakaka!!

Fact 3 : passionate in marching, design, eating and history!! wakaka!! but no passion when comes to assignments!! T.T

Fact 4 : i only have 3 cousin sister. T.T and i craving for a sister!! anyone wanna trade?! wakaka

Fact 5 : i HATE auto transmission cars!!


I Tag : EVERYONE WHO READ MY BLOG!!! ^^



I'm happy,

-coz now i living the life that i wanted for a long time ago ^^
-coz i have wonderful people, great friends around me ^^

ENJOY!!!!!! ^^