huhu...
another update after 2 3 weeks apart..

assignment....
well can i say i progress well?? hehe
so far i really satisfied on my progress in design
and continuing to being ahead from my schedule.

relationship...
5 more days would be our 1 year anniversary
looking forward on it at the same time worried
paycheck haven't out makes my origin plan spoil big time
well thinking of alternative plan now
really hope that she will love the plans that i do for her

this recently
i realize that i being immature in some points.
is this the symptoms of being old day by day?
or the real inner part of me are showing off?
being too sensitive at all time, naive thoughts lurking around me
and not being generous enough for accept some facts that is totally unavoidable
is this my problems?

i really wanna know it why



sometimes i think that
i shall not being selfish

well ended up..
that's another way round

is it my problem of not sorting out with you
or you didn't even realize it that i really care?
sometimes i really wanna tell you some things bout you
but self assumptions tells me that you will counter-attack it back
and making my advices, wishes, hopes and dreams vanish with a word from you
and making myself pointless to voice it out to you
because it will be happening back
not now, in future
probably month later, week later, days even hours or minutes or seconds after that
being with me and the next minute busy with your things
toleration is the only thing i can give you now
i really clueless on what should i do now
giving you more private times means lesser time to meet each other
probably days, even weeks or months after that
only we can meet up once
i know that this doesn't work at all as will ruin our relationship
to a different levels, that is tendency to break up
committing time for you are the only way
matter now is you're not committing your times for me too
sorry to say that.. but yea...
whenever i voice that out, you will tend to say... please be understanding to your situations
then how about me then??
when you really making efforts
i already know that your efforts are fruitless
because you have a lists of 'to-do-list' in your mind
house works, assignments, wanna have your own private time without the presence of me


well
its already to the extend of
whatever shit i type at here and words that i say to you are literary...
pointless

at the same time..
i really love you
i willing to sacrifice my time just to be with you
and your reply is to have me to accompany you to do your works/assignments
i don't really mind as i can do my stuff along with you
but what i want from you are attentions from you!
im sacrificing my time for you
i really wanted that you do really block your time to just spend with me
the only way i cool down and distract to think bout this matter is by smoking and get myself being busy
and i know..
this 2 ways aren't going to work effectively
telling you would be pointless as it will back to normal soon
keeping the problems to myself you will think that i don't tell you anything on what's happening in my head
the only way to get my mind out of this matter
is to be with you, accompany by you and do stuffs that we both enjoy doing it
other than that, when my mood swing comes
i will evolve to some other feller already

i regret for following you to Genting today
as from what i see is you wanna have private times with your friends
not with me
and my presence seems being a burdens for you
as you need to care bout me and your friends



well dear
when you really sees this
i really don't know what is happening in between both of us already
well if you do read it tomorrow, or some other days
i just wanna tell you that
I LOVE YOU!
regardless of what you have done to me
your selfishness, ego, bad time management till you have to isolate me and being bold with your decision of you wanna have more time to do your own stuffs or whatever is in your mind at the moment when you read this
im really don't care it anymore then..

being with you even a while even a minute are already enough to make myself happy already
regardless of your decision in future regarding you need more time and etc
i will not object it and i will accept it with no obligations
i promise you!

well i wanna dedicate this post to one of my best friend, sebrina

have a long chat with her and she awakes me with some points.
well sometimes i really glad that friends are all around me whenever i got a issue/ problems

back to her...
its always not enjoyable now because im not myself when i facing her
well seb reminds me of something
i still do have strong chemistry to her
matter now is that when i with her
its no longer myself anymore
because of her words
that i think she probably forgotten what she told me before

well i hope that i can recover fast
just like seb says
let her be in 1 week
let her have her time
and see how it goes...

well i do really hope that she didn't read this post
because i confirm that she will cry after finish reading


well if YOU do read my post here
i just wanna say IM TOTALLY OK!
so don't worried bout me so much then affect your studies
that i think you won't have time to care bout me..

damn! why i always giving myself a negative thoughts when come to this matter?!


be strong wei loong!
get yourself busy with works and studies
probably you will feel better like this
or probably the other way round then...

updatesss..

it's been awhile....

currently are busy with my works and also my college
so seldom have the time to update my blog.

day 339,
recently we both having a quarrel sessions
that from what i think is my problems
and at the same time i feel that is her problem also.
matter now is that i tell her its not her problem
for the sake of making her less worries in her head.

BUT I REALLY WANNA TELL HER THIS!
sometimes is really her problem!!

well i take this obstacles in our relationships
as one of our challenge quest that have to solve it fast.

work has been fine sailing throughout the weeks.
being promoted seems like it doesn't really fancy though
i prefer to go back to the previous time
no worries and best of all, the pay is 3K
rather than now is sometimes not more than 1.8K

in college,
it's getting like ride in a roller coasters
submissions and presentations are in near every week basis
pressures from lecturers and also from Engineering Maths.

now currently

• wanna make sure every things are run smoothly throughout the whole

• wanna repair our relationships from becoming worsen

• wanna have inspirations from Frank Lloyd Wright.

well as not least, vacations!!!

well my dream came true!! ^^

craving to drive a Ford Ranger..
and now
i have it!!!

drive the Ranger for a week till this coming Sunday.
well although the car itself is not as stylish as Triton
in fact the Ranger itself are painted GREEN!!
coz last time my company use that car for roving Maxis
even the sticker stains are still there though

BUT..

the sound system of the Ranger damn nice!
complete sound system with microphone and also equalizers
wonder when can the Triton can equip a nice sound system to it..


well semester break starts
and im still busy working ^^
beer session was nice yesterday with my superior
and today's beer session meet someone that i unexpected at all, my cousin!
have a nice long chat with him and my superior

well im resigning soon from the job already
kinda missing those moments working with my colleagues,
that now become my friends

well happy summer break for all my college friends that view my blog
i know you guys has waited it for a long time

praying hard now
that she can go Genting with me!!
hahah!!!


currently addicted to:
Ford Ranger
Mitsubishi Triton
Ruled of Secrecy from MUSE
driving 4WD
makan
sleeps
and also not least, si dia ^^


aih gaduh with her pass few days
coz im too tired to wake up and cant be on time for her
hopefully she understands my stands now
although sometimes i feel that she kinda selfish... LAH
haha

but still
i love her!! ^^

long update!!

phew..

is another it's-been-a-while blog.. haha!!

well im finally promoted.. as supervisor..
dead tired!! roar

love the time i spend with Triton
well.. is just another can't-explain-in-one-word-experience
haha!!

well time flies soooo fast
is already end of the semester
and taking the new post for like near 3 weeks already

i have a lot to talk about..
but not sure where to start first... haha!!
well just keep it till i know when is the time then

after near 4 months i working..
now i only realize..
my boss actually is a funny and easy going feller..
haha!!

the most pissing off part of my boss today...
he go watch premiere of Transformer 2 with his colleague and his girl friend
without
invite us!! argh!!


working life do teach me how to be a matured guy
from small bits till big shots stuffs

PS: assignemtns.. please dont hate me coz of i didn't 'touch' you all for a long period of time ^^

for the first time in my life... so far

i won in..
quarreling with a auntie ^^
well it should be something to proud of
coz i NEVER WIN a fight with a female..
^^

well..
soon i gonna be promoted..
happy and stress keeps pouring down to my brains..
many things to accomplish
at the same time many things to worried about

sometimes i just don't understand what female thinks..
how i wish male have the ability to read minds of females
would it be wonderful ^^

missing those old days!!!
i want it back...
can aa??

loving Mitsubishi Triton now!!!
i wanna own it... someday..

plainly bad mood now and wanna express out at here

at afternoon when on the way back to work i got summons from the police
what a darn lucky day to start my day off

working place are fun with 2 funny resellers
and also one of my colleague
after that when he went home

approximately around 7 plus my supervisor appear before my eyes
well apparently im having my 'break' hehe

one thing i was so shocked and f**king pissed of on
is she questioning my working ability
well i admit my wrongs
what i don't like is that she..
argh i don't know and i don't feel like saying it already..

well no one knows me well then my own self right??
so there's no point of i complaining here also.

met someone unusual today..
hohoho..
and she really pretty in heels..

and also met so many usual faces in the mall today

not in the mood for anything today..