fun, fun, and FUN!!
everyday is a fun, new days
there's already a week after my Basic Training at AsiaWorks
awww!!!
really miss my group of near 85 people!!
and yesterday,
our small group had a dinner gathering
really fun and enjoying
but because of too tired..
didn't laugh much also!! wakaka!!
but is really fun though ^^

what i learn
i applied in my life
i aware
i responsible
i support
and just be myself!!! ^^

well it's really been awhile since i update
and already a week and half since we broke up
i wonder
why in couple the time pass soooo slow
and when broke up, the time pass damn fast

well these days
i really think deep
i think i don't want to getting me into a relationship
well i admit i got many new targets
but
just let life be...
there's possibilities if i committed for it ^^
that is what people had told me for the last 2 weeks
when im in training and off the training

i really miss our old times
now i realize
avoiding her is not a options already
always lie to her and myself
its really sucks...
forgetting her is the hardest part
and i try not to know that i miss her
><"

i really miss you lots, yising

haha!! got tagged by Cecilia... muahaha!!!


Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What have you realized recently?

im realize.. MY LIFE since past Wednesday!! ^^

2. Have you given your first kiss away?

first kiss.. interesting... i gave to my MUM or DAD when i... *no idea

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take with you?

can i bring everyone??

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

every place that have in Earth

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

live to the fullest of me before i die

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

i seen it before!! ^^

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?

lose MYSELF!! ^^

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

share with people. now you may thing what the fuck i thinking now.. !!

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

ya!! whats wrong with that?

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.

caring
lovely
and.. CUTE!! ^^

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

erm.. be authentic ^^

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?

no in particular.. hehe ^^

13. What is the one thing you cannot live without?

myself of coz.. ^^

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

point it out for me

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

My life. my achievement ^^

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?

no WAY!!

17. If your house burned down, what is the ONE thing you’d save from your room?

erm... no idea

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?

many fields la... haha

19. Whats the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?

erm.. changes of myself. after training that i attended last Wednesday till Sunday

20.biggest gift that God create for Man?
choices
love

faith
grace ^^

Tags:

1. Huei Liq

2. christine

3. yvonne

4. yan yan

5. sylvester

6. wendy

7. zhiyi

8. and everyone whose read my blog n also stranger!!!

well
saturday..
hard day at traning
hard day at relationships too

hard hard hard

well yesterday do really think bout laopo
when the trainer says this
"... think someone that far apart that you wanna meet..."
immediately
yising appear in my mind
and the person i hug
i really feel that i hugging her
the more person i hug after the statement outs
bring me close to her
and at some points
i really thought is her and i actually called her name out

although is in whisper
but..
i really feel her presence in front of me
and i near to drop my tears

well..
i no intentions to break with you
i wanna be with you
just don't think it so hard
i willing to do anything i can
to keep our relationships alive
and i mean it
from the bottom of my heart

well... training is ended..

what i gain, indescribable
what i experience, indescribable
what i do, indescribable
what i learn from others, indescribable

what i can tell here is.. what i gain from others,
cant measures with money
cant measure with... i have no idea!! haha
but these 5 days training..
what i have learn, experience, feel, and share with others..
are really.. indescribable
really no idea what i have to say...
changes me a lot
learned see things from 3 perspective
instead of 2 that i practices everyday
a lot of gain that cant compares to whatever things in this world.

meet a total near 85 strangers that have different background
is a really fun thing that learn from them
and mirror myself to the others
that was like my perfect... ME!!!

speakers are wonderful, same as the staffs
i cried, feel, experience and face up
to whatever the things that happen in the training and also my life
be aware, listen to others, and keeping agreements
with a total strangers that come from 85 backgrounds!!

3 words.. fun, fun, and... FUN!!!
this is what i feeling was right now..
want to go to take another step!!!
to improve and discover myself!!!

happy!!! happy!!!
^.^

commitment and trust each other..
that is what i learned yesterday

this 2 things...
are applied to EVERYTHING
including love, in work and merely whatever you do

theres 1 word struck me when the speaker talks bout commitment
"... i will do whatever it takes..."
same as Lifehouse song, Whatever it Takes
i was like...
such a sweet song for a powerful meaning

today..
or should i say.. since yesterday..
my laopo.. something fishy behind the rock
i dont know what has happen to her
but i guess...
is bout our relationships
i have no idea...
shes moody whole day...
and i cant do anything for her...
i feel that im so bad actually..
not with her when she needs me the most..
i have no idea on what is happened to her..
hope every things alright...

morning glory!!!
today is one of the day i wake up in the earliest hour
7:50 am

refreshed, energetic and... sleepy again
rounding my head
later going to PC Fair.. to buy something
something that my laopo wanted to me have...
WEB CAM... ahaha!!

today Arsenal - Manchester United game..
well.. hope that i get permit from my dearest to watch it..
hehe..

well yesterday...
nothing much..
just that my cousin's house having BBQ party
which is fun for them,
bored for me
no one chat with me.. (joking la.. is dunno chat with who since everyone's busy)
then... something weird happen
last time i do the freelance...
well i thought that is a FREE project...
but at yesterday, my client
pay me up!! ^^
well although the amount is not what i expected..
but well... is better have something than nothing right.. ahaha!!

happy in some ways...
sad in the other hand

my aunt sick already.. T.T
planned to visit her..
but don't know at when.. T.T
well hope that this week can block a day time
drive there and visit her.. hehe!!!

well... thats all for today, my summary of the week...

my mind was thinking of you all the time
in fact, i cant stop thinking of you...
yising..
i miss you soooo much

Damien Rice - Amie

Nothing unusual nothing strange
Close to nothing at all

The same old scenario the same old rain
and there's no explosions here

Then something unusual something strange
comes from nothing at all

I saw a spaceship fly by your window
did you see it disappear?

Amie come sit on my wall and read me the story of O
Tell it like you still believe that the end of the century brings a change for you and me

Nothing unusual nothings changed
Just a little older that's all

You know when you've found it there's something I've learned
'cause you feel it when they take it away hey hey

Then something unusual something strange
comes from nothing at all

But I'm not a miracle and you're not a saint
just another soldier on a road to nowhere

Amie come sit on my wall and read me the story of O
tell it like you still believe that the end of the century
brings a change for you and me

Amie come sit on my wall and read me the story of o
tell it like you still believe that the end of the century
brings a change for you and me

this song... always make me remember my girl
no idea..
but seems like my other friends also addicted into it
haha

well for me..
this is another wonderful song from one of the singer i like
but at the same time
this song reflects myself and her
i no idea how to say it..
but..
this song..
really got meaning in both of us..
may not to her..
but for me its meaningful..

well yesterday i actually done something
tell myself yesterday is last day to smoke
starting today..
no cigarette please!! wakaka!!!
hopefully...
coz i cant resist looking at
those nice looking limited edition cigarette box!!! T.T
argh...
i wan it!!!
but..
i know i promise someone..
someone named xiao ke ai
so i will try to
resist it...
argh!! bad cigarette!!!!
but i wanted those nice looking packaging... T.T

started busy already....
already a month studying already..
design... till now haven't get commented
haiz...
sad sad
stuck in many things already.... xD
but still happy though..
till now still
' SO FAR SO GOOD'
lol... ahaha!!!

stars...
this is what i do just now at college hostel.
since today my laopo no time to entertain me..
well..
i find something to entertain myself..

went to watch football match with friends..
then go another drinking session with some of my other friends..
after that went to hostel and enjoy smoking with my friends..
(sorry o yising.. ^^)

while smoking..
my friend discover something..
a passage lead to the roof area...
then we was like...
go there and enjoy stars at dark, quiet night.
lie down at the concrete roof tiles
watching for stars
suddenly spotted this star
that shines right in front of the place i lie down

then..
split second
makes me remember of her
i do always wish that
if we got chance
we have such a wonderful time
to actually watch stars together
no worries..
no stress..
no nothing..
just me and my laopo..

kissing under starlight sure romantic huh..
right, yising?? hehe
^^

well i always hope that..
my girlfriend and i got this chance
to actually watch stars together
i always do..
hope
wish
and wait
the chances comes

*think hard
want to do what to make her happy
something...
memorable to us
sweet for us
something...
that we cherish FOREVER..
even our relationships may ends in future
it still will stuck in our mind FOREVER
become the best boy friend she ever have
become her shelter when she needs me
become her pillow when she crying

sometimes i do wish...
i wanted to be with her..
sit beside her..
asleep at my shoulder..
see something beyond extraordinary..
kiss her forehead..
sweet talk with her..
saying 'i love you' to her

same song repeated in my mind since past few days...
same as some of the incident that happened past few days...

decent, indecent ones...
lovely, sad..
happy, moody...

these few days really tough for us..
coz of i answer her some indecent answer..
for the questions that she asking me..
since then,
our life are changed, totally changed
for 2 days...
i can feel the damage, loneliness inside us..
is like..
when we wanna talk, got a black barrier called afraid..
block our will to chat with each other.

these days...
really scary..
although i can go on my daily routine like last time when i single,
but...
there’s.... something..
something missing
i try to not thinking of it..
but i cant..

i tried something at Wednesday..
leave my pen drive to my friend to use..
try to forget my pen drive for a while
and yesterday,
when i saw back the pen drive,
and i know..
i cant afford to lose her..
she...
really meant a lot to me..
and same as her..
i meant a lot to her too..

bottom line...
we cant afford to lose each other!!!
we love each other
care for each other

and yesterday was our a month anniversary
awww.... so sweet ^^...
already a month!!!

Happy anniversary!!! ^^

OH MY GOSH!!! ADDICTED!!! hehe

another nice song from one of the band i like most, Lifehouse

Lifehouse - Broken

The Broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm holdin on)(I'm holdin on)
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing

With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain (In the pain)
Is there healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm still holdin on)(I'm holdin on)
(I'm still holdin on) (I'm holdin on)
I'm barely holding on to you

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what, you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on, to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay
The broken light on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
But I haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain (In the pain)
There is healing
In your name (In your name)
I find meaning
So I'm holding on (I'm still holdin')(I'm holdin' on)(I'm still holdin') (I'm holdin' on) (I'm still holdin')
Barely holding on to you (I'm still holdin on)
Barely holdin on to you

just a reminder for you all
Lifehouse songs are addictive for some people... hehe
and some people may found this band are boring.. BOO......
haha!!

well i cant wait for this week though..
2 more days,
and we are couple for a month already!!! woohoo!!

cant wait cant wait!!! argh!!! *near to insanity
talk bout insanity..
yesterday have a 1 day trip at PJ district,
just to search....
CENDOL!!!
for the sake of my friend.. ahaha!!

well we are some of the last people who get it
and we laugh on people who cant get their hands on nice, chill cendol,
on hot, sunny day..
LOL..

all of us was laugh our ass out..
sadism people.. haiz..
what to do..
LOL..

dear!!!
happy anniversary!!!
although still early.. ^^
hehe!!
love you always!!! ^^