confused....

today...

accidentally bump in to her..

the feeling... indescribable..

well that's a long story... while today i with my old school mates hang out at the shopping complex, something just get my attention away while i enjoy one of my favourite fruit, honey dew.. keke

4 girls.. all four with familiar faces, as i go down from the elevator, that keeps me into attention, wondering who was that.. when i on the way going down, one of the girls waving to me. well i repay her with waving and face with full of wonders. 1/3 left going down from the elevator, i saw her face.. but i still cant confirm weather is it she or not. till....

she smile at me and say ' hi '

and of course i also say hi to her la..

shock, happy and exited flows into me. and i can feel that my heart beat a slightly faster than normal... i wonder.. I'm already forget bout' her already.. why this kind of feeling.... why not other than that... I'm throned up, confused...

the process i went thru to forget her is misery for me... misery enough to forget to sleep, drink, and even my long lost secondary class mate.forgetting her is hectic, forgetting the memories that i have with her, is even worst. till now, my heavy eyes also still in wide open condition. since i broke up with her, my heart is really ' closed ' the door of love already. I'm not blaming for that, coz' I'm still consider study first and love relationship, let it be. but today, the door of love has re-open again.. for her.

i don't want to me another victim for that. i don't want to flung my subject, my ambition and passion just for a girl.. although she is my dream girl... but i know that's is unworthy. love needs sacrifice... and i not willing to sacrifice anything just for girls, and even her, she also not willing to sacrifice for her boy friend also. i don't know, but I'm sure that coz i know her well, really well. she has a big vision, can be as big as mine, or bigger than mine...

flashback movie trailer kept playing at my head now... insomnia is taking place at my mind.. maybe later i go to have some rest la.. just hoping that i won't be dreaming later.....

I'm really confused, am i still like her or that is just a happy feel that she's are OK after long time didn't see her?