about me and another me

my blog's name..

about me and another me

reminded me of something.. my another personalities

just realize that my blog title is somewhat related to one of the Japan animation named 'Bleach' , i was thinking... maybe i really like the main character in the animation named Ichigo... whoever watch this animation sure know what i mean. the Hollow part of Ichigo.. just like me.. the bad part.. or should i say the dark part that i did not dare to reveal to my friends.


sometimes i really have the fear that i blow out in front of my friends. really really scared. and i also want to away from my dark side to conquer my soul and my body. sometimes i really freaked out.. my dark side is so strong and not easy to control... just like a volcano that waiting for time to burst off and fill the land with magma. my case is fill the land with blood la... but i haven try to beat people out till that feller bleed la... keke.

but i believe... someday.. my day will come.
and that day comes.. just hope that someone will beat me up and wake me up...



scene that Ichigo fight with his inner darkness ( white )

what happen to the world now??!!

today, can be say a fustrated yet.... aih.. i also find it hard to put into words. just feel like:-

"... everybody's changing and i don't feel the same.."
taken fron the song 'Everybody's Changing' by Keane

is it the worls now upside down already??? i really want to know!!!!

my mood is swinging left and right, cant focus on the thing i doing, cant think clearly what i want. maybe is not enough sleep or wadever la coz' this morning i sleep at 5:30 and wake up at 8:30. well i really have no idea what is changing to me now..

let me list out all my problems... :
- in love dilemma, yes, and i happily admit it that i still cant let go of her
- in working dilemma, yes, till now i also pening although im done with it already
- in relationship dilemma, mm.. that im not so sure bout' that
- in financial dilemma, nothing wrong also.. in fact im happy with it.

frankly speaking i also not sure what my problem is. ARGH!!!! im really no idea what's happening.

aih.. just hope that later get myself a good sleep la... and throw away my problems aside first. really feel like i should give myself a break.

dont ever judge people !!

judging people.

whats come first in your mind?? fatty ass, ugly girl aka pork chop, or even worst... look down to handicapped people!!! huhu!!

i believe you all here has been judging people at the past, present now and the future time. well judging people... i also not sure we should judge people or not. but of course thru religion they says dont ever judge God's creations. but you know la... gossiping here and there.. some how and some where u sure will judging it. including me!! kekezz!! well no one is perfect!! depending on what you judging la; the inner beauty or the outer beauty.

talking bout this topic i have come across one of my friend that i know at IM, that someone saying her she's a pork chop. i was like...!@#$%^&*...!? no words to say.

well i ask you all here...

define pork chop for me. so far i know is pork chop is eatable food. but what makes me wonder is why people now-a-days like to comparing this food with a man?? i also not sure bout' that.

but what she told me at the last week makes me spark back the memories that happen when i was at the Form 4, at S.M. Alam Megah II at Shah Alam.

that time i and one of my friend at KRS team going there for a traning for coperal promotion camp at Hulu Langat. while we on there many memories really cant forget it till now. the joy and laughter at the camp while we practising our first aid, the co-operation that we having while the camp and also the first time im using hand to eat like a malay. kekezz!!! but what makes the camp so special for me is there's 2 non- malay kadets. one is me.. bwahahaha!! and another one is from Chatolic High at PJ.

well this guy from PJ really makes the whole team respect him, i mean the whole Petaling squardon la. why?? coz' he's a handicapped that has a inperfect fingers at his right hand. his right hand just have the thumb and the little finger. but that makes me and the whole lot of trainee there change the perspective on him is his ability and his technique to use his handicapped hand. he impress all of us by doing a knot at the wood in less than 15 sec. while us was like around 20 - 25 sec. . everyone was like been stunned by his performance.. way hell fast!!! 15 sec compared to 25 sec. !!! wah!! we all like so malu sial!! but hate to admit, he's really well trained before he come to the traning camp. and he very fast has become the whole traning camp's attention star!! hee!! well really glad that he's can mix well in the camp although all are malays!! include me into the malay group ba... just love to be a malay although im chinese!!

well there's no news bout' him since that camp... but he's really teaches me alot. the unforgetable memories, the joy, cooperation and the lesson that he's gave to all of us throughout the 1 week camp, and also unformally teaches all of us that not looking down to yourself and dont ever give up. the lessons and memories really still store in my mind! huhu!!!

and that's the additude that shall a leaders have!!!

little souvenior that i get at the coperal camp at 2004!!!
the rank of Koperal KRS!!

well better follow what the old people says.. never judge a book by its' cover!!!!

PS: so sorry for the long post!! bwahaha!!!
- wei loong -