Finals of 2012

let's have a round-up calculation on this year.

better in work place. CHECKED!

be a better and organized person. CHECKED!

mental strength of handling stress. NOT TOO BAD =)

well all these can't compared to this 1 thing.

i lost a relationship with someone i cared and loved most.

well im not too sure weather you're reading this or not.

but.. like i always told u last time.

i will make it better, counter it and compromised all problems that we have

just to be with you.

you have my words for it.

knowing it's unfair for myself, but i still want to work this out with you.

from this very moment,

even every time i start up my laptop,

weekdays after 6pm,

hanging out with my friends,

i always have these question in my mind.

what you doing now?

getting any better in life,

did u still thinks bout our problems on how to do it?

do you miss me?

do u still love me?

if so, why don't you gimme a call to ease your emotion?

cos i always misses you.

and i still very loved you and wanna do more for our relationship.

sometimes wanna tell you that, it's ok to be weak.

then at this time, you will find true strength

people that can really really help you along, other than God.

is all these a sign?

sign of: i shall let you go?

suddenly feel like writing one after all these while

you might not see this post, as MIGHT NOT still has the possibilities to saw it.

when you saw this, we MIGHT still together, but i have a high possibilities that we probably end our relationship already.

well whatever it is, im just wanna say:

all these while, with you around my side

is the happiest moments that i experienced ever

thanks for giving me a chance to love you

and by having you, only i knew that i can sacrifice so many things for people

you raised up all my senses of treating everyone equally

and most all, treating you better than everybody

with this, only i know...

last time i was always alone

doing things all by myself

but with you

you are the source of my will

accompany by my side to give me strength, power and determinations

these years with you around my life

i learned alot

i don't know how long more we can sustain now as now things changed drastically

i just wanna say:

thanks for your presence in my life

and i hope that we will be better in future

if we do beak up in the end

i hope that you will find someone that is even better than me

you deserves this privilege

and sorry for not being the best that you want me to be