mixed feelings again....

well i really have no idea when or how it occurs
but it seems that it just happen.. naturally
and i didn't know what's the reason for all this happen

probably she too busy with her friends after the trip
or probably she got things that way important than me to neglect me

think bout it.
there's NONE of the items above that gave me my mood swing
after all, there's hangover periods after trips..

then left out 1 item already.
probably im jealous. xD
well i didn't push away this possibilities that i do jealous
but it seems that there's something missing at the puzzle.

is not just bout this item alone
this recently we're having a lot of conflict
but the most recent ones are:

- she not as talkative as last time anymore
- complains too much (call me to cut down eating, give her more privacy times etc)
and.... yea that's all i think.
and yet, it keeps me think that she more happier with her friends

oh well,
when you wanna throw this mixed feelings away, wei loong
of course i wanna throw this away..

i know what....
all this items above gives me the feel of insecure.
(just get this correct feel while writing this out)


well its time to change, wei loong

i have no idea why today im full of rage and anger
till hurts somebody's feelings...

many sorry doesn't cure your sadness in heart
the only i can do is to change myself.