quick update before i head to bed

happy 2 1/2 year anniversary, to my dearest Esther Leong!!

wish our love still this firm and strong till...
well i have no idea till when..
but im hope that we do happy whenever we're together

i love you!!

it's May now..

and today we're had a small quarrel at afternoon
that makes me moody whole day during other half of the working hours..
well im glad within 2 hours we're ok
and im touched when you apologize to me
and you also accept the flaws that i can't changed till now..
that is always ngam you..

somehow i really hope that you understands my efforts to you
sometimes i just hate myself cos i always make you moody
cos of this weakness in myself

but im glad that i did endured till last minutes before i burst out..
compared last time, this is way much better in managing this
hope that i will be better and better in handling this matter!

in a relationship
relying on each other is a way to express yourself
to the person that you cared most.
by that, your partner knows how to treat you better
and you also can treat your partner even better than you used to be =)

today the office was so quiet since she left.
all the best in your new work place, and we will always miss your presence

i made her disappointed

i made her mad

i made her done that

and now i feel that we're at the brink of breaking up

really wei loong

can't you see she's really taking care of your asses??

can't you see she's really cares for you

and most all, is you that made all these happens at all time

really... sometimes i don't know where i can improve

seems that how i done also can't satisfy her

not because she asking for more

is i who just keep repeating everything and many things all over and over again

i don't wish to end this

and i really clueless on what i should do now..

forgive me

thats the only thing i can say of now

its been awhile...

well dang right, its been awhile, since i wrote here...

many things happened..
like im now 5 more months towards graduations
after my final project
had a great celebration of new year, my birthday with my loved ones
and of course, found out that she has a blog too! =)

but what's memorable in these recent 3 months
is that the conflict between us are lesser
in fact are getting better and better
to date, we just had those quarrels that im being too pressurized towards her

well dear, im promise i will do better and better!!! >.<
although is hard... i admit, is dang hard to change
cos is inside me already =)

other than that, we both, well i think she does too
really enjoys the efforts that shows towards each other!

dear
hope that you can end your dilemma soon!!
im always here for you if you need someone to talk with =)
i love you!!!

sacrificing are something that everyone will do
well.. it really depends on conditions though, for specific individuals.

sometimes sacrificing to someone eg friends, families, close related relatives, girlfriend/boyfriend are really good actually

but how about too much sacrificial efforts have been made to someone?
hmm..

starting new semester soon in 5 more days! woohoo!

hello again~ after near 3 months away from my blog here

well..

finals are done
and everyone did a great job from their works
celebration from architecture workshop has passed 2 weeks to date
holiday has gone half way
while i feel that im currently the most unproductive human is this world

in this upcoming 2 weeks
redang trip
tuning back my body to the more extreme state xD
movies, movies and MOVIES
meditations, and not least,
inception about my library project

really have to get my mental to endures endless pressures..
pressures from works, lecturers, colleagues
all these, still, not as important as HER....

probably im not as tough as i thought though
the thought of 'i can endure/being patient for everything' seems is loosing its grips by time to time
many things that i done seems not really works
many things that i think can only be remain as a dream
well at least the things i say still counts inside her thought

well get it over it man!
like she says always, i seems to think too much sometimes

well for that sometimes, i don't really thought that i did really think too much
expressions says it all

hmm..
i shall really get this over

boohoo!! a month plus didnt update my blog already

well..
many things happens in this one month plus period.

lets list it down.

- Cenderuh, Perak @ 03/05- 06/05
one word to describe. superb!
having alot of fun with the lecturers and friends
better than i expected.
camping 1 day at a stranded island, great
BBQ sessions at night, wonderful hehe

- final project
all are on time although got some delays
glad that everyone can make it..
hitting June soon
time are lil running out now
just can wish that all the best for all of us!

the recent ones, melaka trip
just back from there this morning 2am
well overall not bad
having good hang out sessions with dear's friends
A Farmosa is great
nyonya food was gorgeous
Portuguese style seafood, marvelous!


upcoming trip,
architecture workshop at Bangi
going off there in 2 weeks time


fuhh..
finals are 1 month apart from the schedule..
hopefully that everything runs well..

end

the happiest things now that happens to me:
listening to Muse's songs at this current moment
and also listened 2 Muse's songs in radio broadcast in the Friday morning